Sunday, May 31, 2009
Journal entry 251--Help!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Journal entry 250--Your home
I love how my city has a small town feel to it. It's big enough that not everyone knows me and what's going on in my life but small enough to run into someone I know at Target, Costco or the farmer's market. The best part of where I live are the friends I have. We see them every Sunday at church and it's been a wonderful way to raise my family. We have a lot of wildlife at our house, although there are many times I don't like them eating my garden. It's just a great city and I love living here.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Journal entry 249--Forgiveness
I have struggled my entire life with forgiving my father for not being a father to me. What makes forgiving him even harder is that I don't really think I loved him or even liked him for that matter. I never really knew him and when I did catch up with him 30 years later, I found that he had very few redeeming values. I know I shouldn't judge him but it was wrong that he chose alcohol over his children, whether he could help it or not. I look at my 6 year old daughter and can't even imagine putting her through the same pain that I felt at the same age. I'm trying to forgive him but I still feel too much anger towards him.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Journal entry 248--Family Gatherings
I love to get together with family and play games. We usually sit around a table and play different card games, board games and a certain dice game. It's fun to be able to talk to each other and laugh about our competitiveness. I also look foward to putting a puzzle together with my nieces and nephews. We always seem to get out a puzzle and frantically try to put it all together by dinner so we can use the dining room table.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Journal entry 247--Brothers
My brother is a genius. So growing up with an extremely smart brother lent itself to some interesting experiments. I was the hunchbacked Igor to my brother's Dr. Frankenstein either helping with various experiments or being the guinea pig. One time that comes to mind is when he made a generator that sent out small volts of electricity to whoever was holding the two attached metal poles. While I, Igor, held the metal poles, my brother would turn a crank which sent out the electricity. He usually stopped turning it a minute or so after I started yelling.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Journal entry 246--Helping
I've written before about how I didn't have the most ideal childhood and at times I feel sad about it, but I have learned a lot from it. I've been in many situations where I needed to understand how another person was feeling in order to help them. One that comes to mind is a young boy who had just lost his father. He was suppose to participate in a play but felt too alone and upset to be around others who didn't understand what he was experiencing. I was able to share with him how I felt when my mother died when I was young and knew what he was going through. He eventually agreed to be in the play and did a great job. He just needed to be understood and unless you've been through a similar experience, it's difficult. I wish my mother had not died but I am grateful that I had the opportunity to help this young man.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Journal entry 245--Villains
This is hard to think of someone! One person that comes to mind is Professor Moriarty from Sherlock Holmes. Sure he's evil but he's so smart and I have to respect that.
Sherlock Holmes described Moriarty as follows:
"He is a man of good birth and excellent education, endowed by nature with a phenomenal mathematical faculty. At the age of twenty-one he wrote A Treatise on the Binomial Theorem, which has had a European vogue. On the strength of it he won the mathematical chair at one of our smaller universities, and had, to all appearances, a most brilliant career before him.
But the man had hereditary tendencies of the most diabolical kind. A criminal strain ran in his blood, which, instead of being modified, was increased and rendered infinitely more dangerous by his extraordinary mental powers. Dark rumors gathered round him in the University town, and eventually he was compelled to resign his chair and come down to London..."
Friday, May 15, 2009
Journal entry 244--Impressions
I think people usually view me as shy or even stuck-up. I've had a lot of disappointments in my life and tend to put up a shield before getting to know someone. It's not that I don't want to meet the person, I just need time to get comfortable. Sometimes I also get tired of chit-chat and I'm a bit of a loner person. I don't think chatting with store clerks, etc because I just want to get out of there. I guess I need to work on this.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Journal entry 243--Creativity
When are you the most creative? Early morning or late at night? Why?
I am the most creative the minute my head hits the pillow. At a time when you're suppose to shut your mind down and relax, that's when my brain really starts churning. Many times I keep a note pad on my night stand to jot down ideas otherwise I will inevitably forget by morning. A few months ago, I was writing a play for my church and I must have turned my night light on at least 5 times to write down ideas. Sometimes I don't even bother turning on the light and I just write things down in the dark. I guess I think better at night because all the distractions of life are gone for the moment and I can actually hear myself think!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Journal entry 242--Happy Mother's Day!
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Journal entry 241--Mother
My mother was very artistic and creative. She was always doing some kind of craft when I was little and could sew anything. She also made the best wheat bread ever! Growing up, she sewed many of my church dresses which I loved because they were unique and unlike anyone else's. One time I was in a play and my mother made a bunch on animal masks for us. They were colorful and fun to use. I miss her creativity.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Journal entry 240--Movies
I've walked out of a couple of movies and wish I had walked out of several more. My friend and I left a movie called "The Pick-up Artist" with Robert Downey Jr. I don't remember what the movie was about only that we left because it was so boring. There is another movie that I saw with a friend called, "Meet Joe Black." Basically we both thought the other one wanted to see the movie so we stayed only to find out later that we both wanted to leave. At that point the movie was half over so we stayed and just talked through the movie. Don't worry there was no one else in the theater.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Journal entry 239--Nails
Aren't most of the things you do as a child silly? I remember painting my nails a very frosty shade of lilac and then turning cartwheels in my backyard. I must have painted at least 15 coats of polish on my nails. After each coat and before they were dry, I would run into the backyard and turn cartwheels a few times before heading back in for more polish. I thought my nails looked great and was amazed that they never got smudged. Looking back, I think I was delusional!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Journal entry 238--Games
I used to play a game called MASH where each letter stood for a different category of housing. For example, mansion, apartment, shack and house. The person would list four boys she wanted to marry, four kinds of cars and four numbers that represented the amount of children you wanted. Then the person would draw a continuous circle and count the number of lines it made. Next, you counted that number and cross out whatever ended on the number. Whatever was left in each category was you future. So you might end up married to Billy, living in a shack with 5 kids and driving a limo. It was a silly game but my friends and I loved to play it.