Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Journal entry 249--Forgiveness

Do you struggle with forgiving someone who has hurt you? Write about how you are trying to forgive that person.

I have struggled my entire life with forgiving my father for not being a father to me. What makes forgiving him even harder is that I don't really think I loved him or even liked him for that matter. I never really knew him and when I did catch up with him 30 years later, I found that he had very few redeeming values. I know I shouldn't judge him but it was wrong that he chose alcohol over his children, whether he could help it or not. I look at my 6 year old daughter and can't even imagine putting her through the same pain that I felt at the same age. I'm trying to forgive him but I still feel too much anger towards him.

1 comment:

Laura said...

I think that forgiveness is one of the hardest things to do, especially when you haven't done anything to deserve the wrong that was done to you. I admire your efforts. I guess that we just keep trying, until one day we wake up and realize it is done.